Hi, Im Shairah.
13yrs old, A Punggolite.
Single/Attached
I go through life, just as it is; friendship, drama,
and the familiar backstabbing nemesis that occurs daily.
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Hey. Before I begin my 'story for th day', I wanna say somethg to, my dearest girlfriend, qistina.
Qistina,sorry to say, that, I woke up late yesterday. And when I checked in Facebook, your status is flooding all over my news feed. Not just some random status, but status that show your hurt, down, and I know there's something going on. I wanted to call you, but, I was asked to clean up th house, and after that, when Im done, I chatted with you. I wanted to know whats up. But, I was too late, and , your feeling okay, so, I dont think you wanna talk about th reason why your so sad just now. Im so so so so sorry dear, I wasnt there for you when your down. I badly wanted to call you, but I couldnt use th phone. I feel so bad, because me, as ur daughter, and you, as my mummy, I am supposed to share with you your tears, sorrows , happiness, and not to forget, Dayah too. I didnt even make th effort to call you since yesterday. Im so sorry, hope you could forgive me prettyhead. I know your not angry at me, or whatsoever, but I know deeeeep down you must be hurt. And, th bad thing.. was.. I told myself, I wasnt there for you.
Okay, continuing. Today, was, like I expected, a veryveryy boring day. Supposedly to accompany Mr. White to hospital , but then, first. we're meeting at 10am. and th reason for that is.. i wake up everyday at 1pm. and my face will look like tempe basi. get it? second, hospital nothing to do -.- while he is inside th room, what the fuck am I supposed to do outside? sleep? no right -.- third, no money to travel and eat. hahahahahahhahaha, so, meeting him on Monday, I suppose. I know this is so random, but, I miss being attached.. I miss being knowing that someone will be there for me whenever I need him. I miss being pampered every single day. I miss being showered with gifts, and lovey-dovey text messages and late night calls. I just .. miss being attached, ahahahhaa. But, there're more good advantages being single. which, I am now, and yes Im loving it. (: And I learnt too, its no use loving a guy, who eventually wouldnt love you back. And.. he even called you "ugly". Which, is, very sad to hear. Cos' I didnt wish to be pretty in th first place. Your heart will break to pieces if a guy, whom once said, " I dont go for looks ", eventually said, " I dont like her, she's kind of ugly ". Disappointing. yes it is. Like I said, I've never wished to be pretty. I love myself just the way I am, and if you cant accept it, well then, fuck you. Imma strong girl, trying very hard to move on here. I even deleted him from Facebook! But the fact is, I dont hate you, I miss you.
Thursday, November 18, 2010, 1:22 AM